"Moral of this is:" You need a lot of help.
You sound a little on the resentful side of everything. You sound more than a little insulting of the people you live with. "timehoovers" is a new word for me, but it seems rather insulting to refer to people as a time vacuum. The fact you set up a computer for a 9 year old and you seem either to resent the fact a 9 year old couldn't set up her own computer or think you are worthy of praise for setting up a computer for a 9 year old is concerning. You stated you use EQ to escape from them because "people suck all the fun out of life lmao?" Not a nice way to describe people. Perhaps part of your issue is lack of sleep.
Staying up 44 hours straight could indicate a few things.
1) You are blind. Blind people do not always run on the circadian rhythm sighted people do. That seems unlikely as you are playing EQ.
2) Sleep issues come from a number of sources, narcolepsy, mania, a number of physical or mental disorders, as well as being idiopathic. Even drugs taken for, ironically, anti-anxiety or sleep disorders can have the reverse effect. No matter the cause not sleeping for 44 hours is not healthy. This why it is termed torture when forced on people.
Whatever the issue is you are experiencing, what is clear is you need help. Go to a Dr. You use the word "family" within quotes which indicates scorn for them. It makes me concerned for the people living with you. You should go a Dr.
If that is something you refuse to do perhaps look into moving if you are capable of living on your own.
No one gets to do 100 percent of their plans in life. Life is what happens after you make plans.
lol i am not resentful of them, i hate them
but i have no say in who lives here with us, hubby only half owner, his sister owns the other half and its her and their brother i want gone really. when there are 4 adults in a house (and 2 kids, one nearly an adult) all the cooking cleaning tech support, medical/health queries, haircuts, etc shouldnt fall on ONE because the other 3 are too busy(hubby works 6 days and only home half of the 7th) lazy: his 25yrold brother who has NEVER lived on his own, and refuses to lift a finger but creates plenty of mess and certainly eats and uses more than his share of whatever, or lazy and stupid: their sister who is incapable of even washing dishes right. when 1/3 to 1/2 of the dishes go back in the supboards with large obvious chunks of food on them, and that goes for everything else too, and sometimes stuff comes out dirtier than it went IN the sink...and this is one of the best (and only) things she does. Yeah i fucking hate them. and im just waiting til my kid moves out(so is she lol) as she'll be 18 very soon and is eager.
ok the rest of hte post lol: no i resent the fact the 9yrolds 39 year old MOTHER who is majoring in business in college right now, is incapable of setting up the computer for her own kid OR herself (the 1 computer isnt the issue, it's that EVERYONE is fucking helpless when they shouldnt be, including the knowitall 25year old gamer who always wants me to fix it when something goes wrong- everyone is jsut as capable of google as i am, jsut maybe not as good as filtering the results lol idk.
The sleep thing was a one-off. i spend anywhere from 6-10, usually 7-8 hrs in bed every day, but sleeping when im not actually tired just wastes time. when i'm tired, thats when i should sleep but im living on everyone ELSEs schedule not my own.
1: i am mostly blind actually lol, but some peoples circadian rhythms are just plain different too. mine have always been. plus i'm as yet still untreated(correctly) adult adhd which makes all the interruptions and intrusions by all these people i wish would go away, that much worse. (being up once, for 44hours straight, voluntarily NOT by force, isnt torture, it was actually QUITE refreshing because i regained the time i wouldve been sleeping, and was able TO sleep (and not oversleep) when it was done. if this was an ongoing thing itd certainly be a problem physiologically, but its really no different than intermittent fasting: skipping a day of eating once a week or whatever so i skipped a day of sleeping once in......idk how many years lol. when theres somethign wrong with the current cycle of something, disrupting that cycle can be very beneficial. and i was great for several days after the marathon of productivity,
Y'all can think me cold- and hell im a would-be serial killer if they'd only legalize it LOL- but yes, most of the people around me serve NO benefit because i neither like them as people whatsoever, nor do they perform any function thats not done by or doable by the two of us. we only have them here because we didnt wait 1 more month, 6 years ago as their father was deteriorating from cancer, to buy this house to all move in so he could relax (and he was gone less than a year later- the reason i was ever here to begin with, was a very good friend of mine for over a decade) and when it's MY doing, i can be extremely nurturing and yadda yadda, but as soon as it starts being required/assumed/voluntold the willingness to do anything for anyone that simply expects it...gone forever so sorry. Obviously before i lived with them all, this stuff either got done or they went without, now theyve either forgotten how or have come to depend on stuff being available and are too lazy or stupid to go find out for themselves how to do it all.
Anyway, hubby and his sister co-own the house on paper because his VA checks werent coming in yet and she had a 10yr work record at the same place...however he had immaculate credit and hers is horrid, and he not only paid the first 25grand in cash from his savings accounts, but paid untold thousands for the move of what in the end was 5 different households of stuff (a lot was in storage) as well as buying new things like chest freezer, dryer, dishwasher etc. On top of all that he also pays about 200 extra a month direct to the principal, so all in all by contribution, he has put3x as much in via the monthly payments, PLUS originally paid off 25% of the market value off the top, and ive paid thousands directly into the principal as well out of insurance their father left ME when he passed (i also bought a new enormous fridge, built an entire gym, paid to neuter at least 4 animals and god knows what else i forget now) SO: we deserve to have the house to ourselves once my daughter moves out in a year or so (no im not pushing her out right at 18 lol but i know shell be heading that way quickly)
The two of us have acquired and/or fixed 90% of the furniture and appliances in this place(it came fully furnished too, along with dishes and some appliances but it was furnished 50 yrs ago) and we still pay more than our share of the expenses0 especially since neither of the other 2 give a check for their share every month, but sometimes go 2 or 3 between as if thats useful. not to mention the sister- coowner- is at least 4 months behind perpetually, and ya cant evict a coowner and ya cant stop paying the mortgage because you get screwed too. There is jsut so much to it that yes im entitled to hate these people and wish they would just go away, and their own brother is damned close to the same hes so tired of their shit, but being related hes not at the "hate" point- and as they say, never deal with anything monetary with family members. sharing rent or utilities is bad enough but a mortgage and house deed?? Gonna have to sue his own sister, or pay her over 20grand to buy out "her half of the equity" that she only paid in about 1/12th of, just to get out of it since she will NEVER buy him out or leave, thats kinda a nonstarter. The only way out is for us to go buy ANOTHER house and tell them either they leave or we will, and if we do the house'll go into foreclosure in 3 months flat, the animals will starve to death and all the utilities will be shut off. If you have another idea, let me know. But paying for 3/4 of the monthly expenses(utilities and food combined plus extra on the mortgage) and over 45% of the principal on the house to her 3-4%, and the only option to get away from these guys, since they BOTH own it and arent married so no divorce court lol, is to pay even more to get a new place. (and buying a house is way cheaper than renting anything here, monthly rents are 3-5x the mortgage payments on most places)
anyway, lol, i cant even see what im typing. 90% of my problem are the 3 people that shouldnt even be living with us at this point in our lives. we're not a buncha 20yrolds, and the other 10% is the bullshit bureaucracy in the medical world(they HATE prescribing the right meds to an adult despite knowing the ones they insist on trying first(uncontrolled) take longest to work, work the least often, and have the most prescription interactions to worry about(and mine doesnt care about that either so long as she doesnt prescribe a controlled substance to an adult who thinks drinking alcohol is a waste of time so i must be high risk lol- but they hand amphetamines out to 6yrolds like fucking candy. not because its the best thing to do at that age or because its safer for them than adults, but because theyre less likely to sell them on the street lol, only because at 6 theyre not likely to be allowed on the street alone but by teen years(when they continue to prescribe no problem, its college age they stop) theres even more chance of distribution or abuse than in a goddamned 40yrold. ok nuff venting. That sums up my last 25years or more medically except the 5yr stretch to get diagnosed with something else thats congenital and ALSO untreated(it has no standard treatment though) . When i am alone(ish) and in my OWN house (its not technically mine either, on paper) i can be extremely productive, but distractions are a brick wall i run into constantly, i even forget i got up to pee the second i stand up to head to the bathroom, until 10minutes later im sifting through a chest freezer planning meals and am like DAMMIT better not be anyone in the bathroom lol.
But adding the distractions of not just 3 people who dont NEED to be sharing the same household as us, but 3 very NEEDY and either helpless or lazy (or still a child, though shes very immature for her age too)people, who are also extremely annoying- ugh. When the sister was working 50hrs a week over the summer(she doesnt work except a few hours a week otherwise, and i have to babysit on whatever schedule SHE decides to work) but when shes gone all that time, literally more time than shes here with her kid awake in a week, and both of the brothers are gone(one doesnt intrude or annoy the other does, but it doesnt matter who: people are a distraction or time hiccup, especially those 2 since one or the other is in the bathroom for 20-45minutes at a time at least every hour and thus i have to go upstairs through the kid's bedroom which is probably a mess, to get to the upstairs bathroom so i can spend less time peeing than i spent getting detoured lol)
I hate being forced to babysit, but thats another discussion, however despite that i certainly WELCOME the time with everyone gone or asleep at the same time and its DAYLIGHT. I cant do anything away from the house unless i wanna deal with someone else's kid, and i dont, and i cant do anything time consuming unless its in the common areas of the house so i can observe/listen and be available etc, but unless that kid wants something there are no distractions. my kid stays in her room on the computer or takes her cat out on a leash(lol) The summer when i bitch and moan about being forced to babysit so many hours(and i get paid $2 an hour lol) is still great otherwise. Fall, winter and spring there are literally at LEAST 2 people awake and moving around etc 24hrs a day. Summer, they all work pretty much the same shifts all summer long , it just happens. I do great, maybe not what i set out to do but i do SOMEthing on my list(and make more things to do) i check off 30-50things before freaking noon. As soon as they start coming home from work around 3-4, my day turns to mush, but at least i got to spend the first 8+ hrs of it without the constant intrusion. so yeah, its at least 90% the people and at worst 10% lack of meds.
The other 3 seasons of the year, the only peace i get is from 9-10pm til midnight, and 3-4am til 6-7. There are no other blocks of time. That adds to either the nightowl sleep schedule OR the loss of sleep OR the inability to spend any time with hubby (which 5 days a week happens to be those 3 hrs in between, and theres really not much to do at midnight lol. Places of business are only open certain hours lol, i have to do this or that for this person or that and this time or that time on this day and that day all afternoon and evening, so the only answer IS to go to bed at like 4 and get up like noon, but then im immediately trying to get stuff ready for hubby for work that i dont do before bed because bleh. On Sundays, i literally wake up and am on babysitting duty within 15minutes, until after dinner. Monday isnt so bad, its only 5 hours, but afternoons particularly on those 2 days, are supposed to be MY time because the way hubbys schedule works that im not explaining. But no, that intrusive demanding selfserving bitch cant find herself a babysitter ELSEwhere because she cant afford it and wont even look, and she has her CHOICE or days and time periods to do her work(workstudy school b.s. that costs as much as it pays, but required for edu grants) but she chooses the 2 afternoons and evenings that are the worst to take away. She even asked first and i TOLD her sunday and monday are the WORST days...and she took them over all the rest anyway. Theres a lot more to her...story...but im not getting into it because that would be a 100k word book. that woman is a fucking stalker lol, seriously, my own personal live-in stalker lol.
time to go try to get things done before i have to be on her schedule yet again. if i can remember what things they were specifically not a giant vague list(ive been repairing a few computers and cloning some hdds to ssds while ive been sitting here typing) and no diea where to start. i have lists, lists or lists lol, but not a prioritized one for right now because i wasnt expecting to be up right now (and i was GOING to play EQ since ...3am..to try to get those augs yet before the request timer starts.